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Thursday, May 19, 2016

Today with Hope

Good Day, May 19, 2016,


Thank you for showing me how power can be manipulated to make everything look good.  Its like always seeing the grass is greener on the other side.  Its human perception i think that is the problem.  I wrote this blog to help me open my eyes on how should I think.  I really hope that this blog would help me realize my path in life.  I am always lost,  everyone thinks i know the way but truly i am also lost with them.  I tried to be a leader but followers cant follow.  I tried to inspire others but they are not.  My only goal is to be the riches man in the world financially.  It seems like its quite impossible.  People see the word impossible is a simple way to say i cant or it can't be done.  I am really tired on showing them how it is done.  I tell them how to do it they look at me like a fool.  I strive to to the best and they criticize my ways.  God is a word they often like and often love to use.  I put my faith in myself and i know that is hard but i can manage.  The real problem now is that i am having a hard time managing these feelings.  I am always angry at life.  Disgust and really getting depressed, looking at others and comparing my life to them i am grateful that i have more than others.  I also see that there are a lot more others who have more and also a lot more who have less.  Is it because they are not given ample opportunity to shine or it is because we tend to shy away when opportunity arise.  Fear is the thing that every story have that is evil.  Its saying fear is evil and hope for the best is the good thing.  I seen a lot of evil but are they really evil?  Understanding things is not the way to live but i chose to do so.  

I love to understand why, in order to help.  The problem is, sometimes its is not the right kind of help that a person need.  Opportunities are the key for a person to succeed and enjoy life.  I promise this to myself.  When the opportunity presented itself to me,  this time i will truly grab it and embrace the dream and hope.  We will know if this hope is really a good thing for us.  Change is a difficult process and everyday is changing.  I know this blog is not my usual blog but today  i really feel that i am stressed and no one understands my pain and hardship.  Knowing them and feeling them is two different things.  I will sign this off with a positive note that what ever happens, i know that i will find a way to make certain circumstances .......................