Today with future

LiGood day November 28, 2015, 

As i always start my journal with a good thank you,  thank you for everthing.  Thank you for letting me experience some new snacks on my sister in law's place.  Thank you that i got to take care of my nephew, thank you for letting me feel secure with all the savings i have.  Thank you for giving me a good environment to operate my opportunity and discover more things a bout this world.  As i learn more about this world the more i realize that i dont know anything.  This limited knowledge of this world is quite limiting.   The thing that i realize that the more i waited to live my life the more i am not living my life.  Experiencing how a baby view this world for the first time is quite revealing as everything about this world for the baby is interesting.  It helps the baby be a person it wants to be or needed to be to survive this world.  I dont read my pass journals but hopefully one day in the future when i feel more complete in my financials i would look back to this moment and smiled that i have acheive what i set to achieved.  Life throw us a lot of unexpected things.  Life brings out the best in a person.  I am quited interested in Einstien's theory of relativity.  If i understand what his theory is telling me is that time is the fourth dimension that we are experiencing.  It does give us multiple senario of each posibility.  It do mean that if such an act is accomplished hence the time it spend to reach the accomplished state is also the part in which it became to that state.  There could be a lot more other possibility but because of its certain influence to follow certain laws it apparently would come to the accomplished state as it should be.  Its more like an explanation of destinty.  The more you think about a certain event the more you would realize that everything in this world is drawn towards the preferred state in which you want your life to be.  Its a matter of just visualizing it and making it happen.  Apparently thinking about it is a first environmental influence that correlates certain events or external environment to find the state in which a certain event should occur.  

This means that everyone is drawn towards it and each moves according to each will and when you will correlates with others hence this is why certains stuff crossed paths.  This also means that certain events are bound to occur due to the influences that each pushes to reach that event in which everyone have been dreaming about.  Thinking that each force that we excert to the universe is out of our control,  it seems that it is not the case.  For each action we out forward, we might not know if a certain evnet might occur,  but we have issued an action hence a definite result is surely to be expected in the future.  Regardless of the action we put forward is to push it towards what we perceived as the one we prefer.  

I may not experience it all but i give you this there are currently 5 candidates that are running for the top post for this country.  The question is which candidate is going to win.  The only thing that is definite right now is that we would have a newleader.  This is a new leader and regardless who will win they are in a heck of a roller coaster ride

Today with Business

Good day,  June 9, 2015

Thank you for a very interesting day.  It seems like all my equities are doing well as in as in the range i expected it would be.  The new thing here is business.  I know that business and equities are not the same but it is the same in uncertainty.  Having a business gives me a false sense that everything would fall into place when business is agreed upon.  As it is that all agreements are made by humans and everyone is bound to fail on those agreements.  In business it quite the same.  It guve only the false sense that everyone would respect the values of business and follow the words that are agreeded upon.  In Equities we could speculate and expect a certain market sentiment that everyone would follow.  The only thing is everyone is its own master and everyone is doing its best to move the way they like it.  It seems that we cant control both.  The only thing that i like about equities is that it does not hide the fact that it is not an exact science and everything will move according to the market sentiment.  Regardless of charts and stuff it is placed that the charts are taught so that everyone or a herd mentality could be instill to all the traders.  This way it would move as predicted and the gainers will only be the one who could analyze the flaw of the science.

I am currently struggeling in accepting in the fact that business cant be really controlled there are a lot of factors that we cant control.  Managing it is better but still for a person like me who want to control almost everything it is a very hard gane to play.

Today with Clarity

Good day,  May 27, 2015,

It seems that i am having some rough or maybe confusing time.  Finding things to be thankful for are the key to be successful and to overwhelm myself with passion and control.  Thank you for having me able to decide or make correct decisions as each day passes.  As i grow i realize that all of my success or hardwork are being accomplished by the small things and taughts that i have.  I maybe sometimes lazy or maybe not doing enough but i think in actual i feel that i could do more.  The only thing that is stopping me is not opportunity or faith.  The thing that is stopping me is me.  It feels like I am lost and i could not find the courage to draw a better path for my future.  Is it because i think too much or am i thinking too much.  Am I sharing to much?  These are all the questions that runs in my mind everyday and for each thing that passes i do still think that way.  Having confidence and being full of my skills are kind of similar.  I am greatful for the opportunity that has presented to me.  I am grateful that my stock trades are getting better.  I may not see the big picture now but it seems that we are going there.  Thinking of the end results have me motivated but thinking of the cons about the result do hinder me to think further.  

I really do need to reevaluate the way how i would proceed.  Doing another business is never easy.  As i am now my time is full and reall stress out on the small things that are coming.  Enjoying the journey is not quite as fun as I taught.  The main important stuff is to enjoy the journey.  Making everything seems look easy is bad and making everything look complicated is also bad.  Having a simple task or routine eliminates the taught of what you are doing cause it is giving an illusion that what your doing is the thing that is your doing to make your story a success.

Having achieve stuffs,  does is qualify as success?  I know a person who seems to me as successful but still strives everyday to prove himself or push himself better.  Is that the reason he is still alive or the reason he keeps on moving or doing what he does.  I also know a person who enjoys doing really nothing and enjoys his life.  So it seems but i really dont understand.  Enlighten as I am the only think in all that i am thinking is the solution to all the stuff i am wondering about. 

I am grateful that i have this magnificent analyzation skill that can shape my future.  Currently I am stuck and i really hope that i could further push my mind into thinking a more better way.

Today with Data

Good day, May 25, 2015,

Thank you for another relaxing day.  Actually being boring day have its perks.  Aside from boring there are a lot of things in my Mind that needs more analyzing and stuff.  Doing a big business entales more risk.  I really wonder if the risk and effort is equivalent on the returns that it might give back.  My skills in reading stocks are getting sharper by the year and everything is doing fine as we needed too.   I have some equities that i have bet and i really hope that those pays off.  The wary sign that my skills Re getting better are base on the gains that i would garner from this bet.  Long Term is not bad but my heart really is getting anxious by the minute.  The patience i have is thinning.  Patience is Passion control and i really need to control my patience to a degree that would help me even further.  

This is the biggest equity bet i have place and i really hope that it would pay off.  The reason is that i would concentrate more on equities?  Thats the real problem ,  business is the only thing we know doing for the past years and giving up this kind of lifestyle wont be easy cause the uncertainty of the other path is very very gambling.  Everything in life is gambling regardless of what we do.  Deciding and trying to control and predict what might happen is the fun part in life.  Knowing everything before even if it happens gives a boring persona in life.  Doing business is like solving problems for a reasonable price.  Its a good motivator but the reward seems monetarily bias to the side that you should not risk that much.  Having properly compensated on what you do is the best feeling ever as my friend is being paid a handsome amount for his services.  The problem is the comfort that it entales lowers his potential to negative cause rather than creating his dream he is realizing other people's dream.  

In other words,  life is never fair.  I really hope that a positive note can be learned thru all this experience but the only thing i realize thru all this is that we dont stop regardless of what happened or what will happend we just keep moving forward plan and do our plan.  Remember to plan your life not your work.  I usually plan our work not the life now adding both of them seems a daunting task and i really hope that i could acheived it the way i dreamed and envisioned.

Today when remembering

Good day, May 11, 2015,

Its been a real while since we talk.  I would always thank you for all the good things that happens to me.  Currently the books in Our business tell me that business is doing fine and everything is going as planned.  

Thank you for the opportunity and the capability that i am currently have.  The option to bring new products and invest in stocks with more money to invest and play with.  Thank you for letting me relink with old friends and made our bonds more tight.  It seems that everything have a reason and the past is catching up.  I am begining to understand more and more about the secret of attraction and the power that each person possess.  The small acts we do to accomplish our big goals are the real key to be successful.  Always saying yes and jumping forward would help and boost our moral and help us acheive my goals faster.   With each passing day life is becoming more clearer.  Even tough my life is getting into plan i still cant stop worrying on stuff that my dream might not come true.  

Is it because when i more closer to the gola and dream i want the more impatient i become?  Is it because that i am losing all the passion inside of me that i have a hard time processing the new information.  Regardless of what i might feel.  One thing is for sure,  i am very grateful that i have opened a lot more oportunities and luck.  More Equities for me to trade means more chances for me to earn more money.  I have chosen a new stock and I really hope that this new equity pick will solidify my confidence on my ability in stock picking.  

Today wit Validation

Good day May 7, 2015,

Thank you for a very structured and profitable day.  All my equities are doing well but the fact is i have a problem in validating my own ability to earn Big money.  I know that i should appreciate and thank for the good things like selling 1000 pcs of my LEd flourescent lamp.  Selling 50pcs of 420W solar panel.  Its been a long time since i have those kind of sales and it feels good.  

Having a lot of good things happening to me for the past months like.  One of my equity from .24 cost sold it at .79 before the drop.  I was very lucky and at the same time i might have the sight to see it thru.  I have greatful that i have made new friends.  Their validation for the skills i have in foreseeing the future.  I do seen it first hand for a lot of times but i still dont have the confidence to trust in them.  I do have some miss hits but still it is all good.  

The real question is if all the right ones will be able to nullfy all my possible mistakes?  Will i be able to succeed with all of skills i currently have.  I have no choice but to bet on my self cause i dont have others to bet it on.  I also dont trust others to bet on them too.  Today is my dad's Birthday he should be around 54 years old if he is alive.  I do hope that my current abilities are enough to earn 10 billion dollars.  

Business is doing fine but the real question is that the government is realy not doing the best it can to serve the people.  Time will tell but that is another part that scares me.  Is time one my side or it is not.  Timing is very important and others tell me to enjoy my journey.  I do try to enjoy my journey cause it is a good story to tell someday.  I dont have a child and dont plan too.  

I should thnak god or thank everyone for the skills i have cause what ever happened to me in the past made me the way i am today.  I do feel that my skill may not be enough compare to others but i am going to get there someway and somehow.