Today with Deserve

Good day April 30, 2022 Thank you for letting me get away with what i deserve.  Thabk you letting me realize a lot of stuff. Thank you for letting me learn and grow further.  Realizing that Mothers love their child equally and sees love differently applied in each.  I would say that Humans are really interesting, their motivation to get they want and try their best to change things.  My main focus on fixing stuff is to make everything work smoothly.  In my eye i see my mothers's decisions are soley base on her imposing authority or will.  Its more on controlling cause she feels like my plan and decisions are too controlling and her authority is being challenge.  Currently the blue print for the renovation is already set and only slight adjustments are made to fit the gerneral idea of the house which is making sure to live comfortably and smoothly without any problems in environment and people's tendency.  That is my sole vision.  My mother have different way of thinking and her way is just to make sure when she likes it to happen cause she likes it.  The simple idea is the second floor will be her unit while on the 3rd floor will have another unit for my sister's family to live in.  The architech main building plan is from top to bottom which is nice and good.  My mother focus to entice my sister to live on top if ever she choose too.  She would find ways to change stuff to fit the vision of my sisters desire and to hasten the building of the 3rd floor.  Its too much details to give points but the summary of this is she is trying hard to make it looks that the house is build on her daughters vision.  I have told them from the start thea the house will be walls and they would need to fill it with items to make it beautiful and pretty base on their vision.  Its not me or the architect to make her designs come true but we will make the house to be build to have an opportunity to make her vision come true.

Mindset is very hard to change in which each person have their own ways of thinking.  That i realize that my sister still feels she is not capable of making her designs.  Thats a very big problem.  As time goes by she is anxious that her visions are not built by the people.  I intentionally said no visions are build by the construction cause its really hard for them to visualize the stuff and workers then to delay stuff to benefit them.  All in all everyone is on the edge and I am really pissed with everything thats happening cause no one is seeing what i am seeing.  They are not moving sinple enough to make stuff better and fast.  They want build in devices which i dont like.  The more built in the more stuff they feel like its not built base on their designs.  If they buy the items and put it and measured it they would feel they have built their own home.

Many people dont understand the simple is the best and most complex things.  simple designs simple instructions are the best.  Any complex or visions should be made and manufactured by themselves not telling them without any context

Today with Voters

Good day April 28, 2022 its been a blessing and grateful that all my hard work in our family business is paying off but as it geows problems do arises its harder to manage each time it grows.  Its near election in the Philippines and the current favorite is the son of the past president that have been branded as dictator for doing martial law for 20 years.  Hearsay that during his time it was peaceful and everyone is doing pretty well. Consumables are in the price reach of each citizen but with this a lot of human rights was disrespected and abused.  After a bloodless revolution a new era have begun which offers freedom and a more comprehensive growth for many citizen not only a few people who are in power.  These following 36 years of 6 different president of the republic.  Many citizen are claiming that it was better in the martial law years than Today exception of the latest president Duterte as a fan favorite.  This latest president have doen what other presidents could not.  He did unite most of the citizen and have serve almost all basic nesesity for the majority of the citizen.  There are a lot of people on the other spectrum that claimed he did not did a good job.  His credentials in Paper are bad and everything good happening is becuase of all the work of the past presidents.  

After all this Pandemic, this election that is coming.  I am now convince that Duterte did a very good job.  Lets discuss the current problems that could not been accredited to the past presidents.  The management of the pandemic with the Little resources that the government have, with all the red tape his government have.  All the things that the opposition have ia morality and ethics but Legally he upheld the constitution well.  He did gave assistant to everyone with all his capacity.  He did irke a lot of haves and gives to the have nots but just enough that the have would not really hate him too much.  The balancing act is really astonishing.  The second thing was the war on a City down south, his rehabilitation efforts are incredible.  He did revuilt a war torn city during his term and the war was also in his term.  Thats a feat on his own.  Unlike his predecesor which handled the typhoon crisis with much dismay of the people.  This is a testiment to President Duterte with his bad mouth and unorthodox way to talk to international community and his opposition.  The people rallied behind him and felt their lives was uplifted somehow.  

This happening is really whats bothering me a lot.  Why do the result of all his works seems to be bad in the elites eyes which they claim that their smarter more educated and their background is cleaner than the other candidates.  This gives me a perspective that they find paper certificate much more valuable than the end result which stuff gets done.  For me result matters a lot.  Without result all the said skill, paper certificate are worth nothing until you used it to uplift your life or the life of others.  The so called candidate what fights for justice is one example that all her accomplishments are seen by a few elite but not really felt by a lot of people.  Her words and way of distinguish herself from the son of the past president.  This is her statement or her group " the candidate should apologize for the sins of the father cause it was the family that benefited the most from his fathers unexplained wealth". Following her logic it seems that her character is flawed as she claims she is for justice but wants to punish the son for the father's sins.  She and her group could not see what they are saying and that is another red flag that gives them the conotation " stupid". Lastly for their flaw they claim good character but they associated themselves with gray characters as the likes of Past mayors with rumors of corruption, a detained senator which do have evidense that was one enabler of drugs in the country and the last is associating with people that just despise the son of the former president.  This candidate that is the son of the former president is also something to be scared off, if he is such a loving son and do give and sees his father as a hero.  He would probably plan a revenge to all those who punished their family even though it was not their fault.  If he claims to be this unity person and does not want to divide and exact revenge then he would be contradicting himself as a good loving son cause who in the world would not exact revenge to a person he loves.  He is now lying in his campaign slogan.  He is also smart not like the book smart as the female candidate but his smarts are more on the level that people can see and hold.  Its a result of his smarts not inteligent to answer somepaper work.  With is current knowledge he was able to do a hard feat and run for president is no a simple task especially if the schools in the country are teaching that his last name is evil and causes human rights abuses.  As you can see the two candidates are really something and the female candidate is weak due to the fact all of her associates mostly did not produce a good result for the past 36 years.  She came from the province but when you go to her province there are a lot of people who are poor.  Unlike the province of the Male candidate which you can see that their province is being visisted by a lot of tourist for not their natural wonders but people created wonders.  U like the province of the female candidate which have a natural wonder to be a sight of beauty.  This disparity of achievement and result is the backbone in which the male candidate is extremely powerful cause they have proven that they can make something good out of a bad situation unlike the female candidate that could jot do anything to uplift other people's lives

Today with Axie

Good day April 27, 2022

Thank you for having me still wake up and have the energy to ontinue.  I should have written something but i was not able to wrtie about the stuff i am getting anxious off.  This axie crypto game was an investment i tried to go with to have an exposure to investment that might improve and earn more money.  I also tried to buy another crypto and invested in it and hope that it will pick up.  I invested all the moeny i earned from another investment to hope that it will grow.  I took a 1% stake and business was going well and good for now.  I left some of the profit to cover me.  With all this i have make my mindset about investing and continue to grow my finance.  Its really hard cause seeing majority of my investment are not picking up the pace i prefer and Reach a certain age.  I understand that we should go on our own pace and Age is just a numerical value on how long you been alive while the earth orbits around another celestial body.  It does not entails how much more time you left or how young is your body is.  this time 2022 in the philippines election is coming and everyone is also anxious on which canditate will win and bring a better future to the philippines.  One candidate have a bad reputation in the past and also have some unexplained happening during his father's time as president.  Another candidate claiming that she will is the right candidate as she tells the world that in the past 30 years after this first candidate father ruin the philippin their batch of friends made the philippines better.  Another candidate who have been the aftermath of both reigns of 30 years slow growth and 20 years unexplained rumors that drives this man to run for the top position in the government.  Every candidate seems like my investments.  They seems nice when they are selling themselves but when the people decide the one the investments wont budge to greatness or boom.   looking at these scenario i feel like all people are buying hope for a better future or lifestyle that they can make everything they want in the future.  

Having 20 billion dollars cash liquidity in your bank accoutn might give you worry of inflation that is currently happening in the world but again is capitalism working and economics will always be efficient.  We only hope that we got to ride the efficient train and reach our destination with overflowing with money or while traveling your life money comes easy and plenty.  I been in the province and saw the community there needs to improve and make it more efficient.  The money earned in the community will determine the efficiency of the things doen and measuring it is quite hard.  Time is a factor cause we dont know when will the efficiency be seen and felt.  Thats why when we wait for the efficiency its also a natural way but we dont have control.  its seems that today and everything happening here in the philippines is the cause of all past presidency and the last president we got seems to manage his presidency well.  The thing is we will feel it after his term not during.  During his term present effect like this pandemic management is done in a very good way in my eyes.  Criticizing while there are problems is good but how we criticize is the key.  Just saying that it is done wrong but nat telling why its done wrong and why it happen will no give support to the reporter or candidate.  The after effect have been fixed and now we are doing better and it seems the current president is in control.

Today with emotions

Good day April 5, 2022

Thank you for all the things that happen and its just toady was able to write something about whats ahppening.  Since the pandemic everything seems bad and most of the people are having a hard time.  Its quite different for me but it seems that everything i been working towards is going the way i want.  In reality it seems that all the failures and all the hardships i encountered was built on the fact that soemthings like this pandemic and halt of economy is slightly adaptable.  In my eyes all the hardwork and diligence i been doing is just started to pay off and i am afraid that life would turn another curve ball and give me more problems or halt my current trajectory. The more i think about it the more i feel stressed and i feel that why in the moments that i started to feel some good it might be bad.  It seems that i dont know what to appreciate the good times and just bear with the bad time.  Maybe i just fear that one day i am not able to endure it, or maybe i am afraid that this is just a begining of a good lofe and along the way it will start to overwhelm my senses and go back to bad circumstances.  

Hardwork and luck needs to work hand in hand.  I understand more in life.  I am near my 40 and lots of people say life starts at 40.  I would say that its quite true.  this maybe the phase in my life that i may try to experiment with all the gathered experience i have and try to make something out of it.  I am afraid that all the gathered experience might cause the fall of me and it might cause me not to stand up and fight.  I know thay being afraid wont solve anything.  i am now gathering all my courage and giving it a push so that i may experience to live the life i have envision myself to have.  I have taught that regret is really the worst thing to have.  Its worst than fear and it will really breaks a person hope and will.  Its like saying i should have invested this and look today i might have this.  If you look at the goal one will surely be overwhem with it.  A lot of guys who acomplished a lot started looking to the next step focuses on what they think might bring them near to their goal.  they might reach it fast or slow.  The only thing for sure is that we are doing something to make it happen.  We really hope that it would be fast enough for us to enjoy.  Everything happening do have a reason, maybe the reason is bad or good.  One thing i do believe is true everything happened so that what should happen will happen and the future will happen according to your will.