Today with Second Chance

Good day November 30, 2012,

Thank you for all the small blessing that came to me in past day. I am thank you for the time you given me to enjoy small activities like playing diablo And watching my favorite shows. I have written this blog again due to lack of memory I would need to rewrite everything.

In these past days, I may not written my experiences but surely there was a lot of Things that got me thinking. I read a quotation from the Dai Lai Lama. The quote explained that Man is the most interesting thing on earth. He states that man spend all his life accumulating money and in his end of day spend the money he earned to recuperated his health. The quote also states that man while he is living does all the things he doesn't love to do. Upon his death he would regret that he should have done the thing he loved. In the end man did not even lived his life.

This quote gave me a realization that I am somewhat that kind of man. I spend all my life working to earn money sacrificing my health to an extend due to stress then uses the money I earned to recuperate my health. I would saved money and say I would do certain things when I reach a certain point in my life. In my last breath I am afraid that I would say the same thing . I should have enjoyed my life.

Then I came to watch a video blog by a professor. The professor asked what if money is not needed what would you like to be? The student said professions that is unlikely their strengths but the professor said do that. The funny thing about life is that we might not know what we loved to do. People might have different things they loved to do at any point in life. If people tend to do what they loved they might not end up doing anything cause they would always find new things to love.

I understand what these two person is trying to say. Life should be living the way you love it. Spending time to enjoy. Doing things you like and sacrificing something to get what you love. It is not wrong to follow what we feel or love. The only thing is once you found it make sure you finish it before jumping to the next thing you love. Loving is never short term nor it is easy. Loving is able to sacrifice your life to make it better.

Recently I also fired one of my most well performed staff. He was great in his job but he has a problem. He is an alcoholic. On November 28, 2012, pass 11:00pm to midnight. He was drunk yet again. He went upstairs to his co worker's dormitory room and tried the open the door knob. All my staff do lived in one roofed and tee could consider it a dormitory. Upon turning the knob and found out it was locked he eventually went out the balcony of the said room which was occupied by my female staff with 2 children one you g lady and her younger brother. The female co-worker woke up and got anxious due to the sound. Then she saw a shadow lurking outside the window. She then asked the shadow with a firm voice that who's is there. Then with a small glimpse of the face. She then said I saw who you are and why are you here. The worker immediately drop on all his fours as the female co-worker drew near the window cautiously. She then peaked outside and saw the perpetrator crawled back to his room and pretended nothing happened.

The following morning she told me what happen. During this time, my gut tells me this guy did not do anything grievously wrong but he would eventually do something bad in the future. This guys have been living in the said dormitory for almost 2 years now and nothing like this ever happened. I called a friend and asked for an advise me to tell the guy to find a new place to sleep.

I find his advise good, but still I really can't risked any bad thing that might occur. I have decided to let him go due to working conditions might not be as normal. Awkwardness would be in the air and we don't know if he would repeat the creepy act in the future. This guy has a potential to do harm or have a bad intention toward someone. I called him and talked. I asked him what was his problem. He said he did nothing wrong he just peaked. I told him if you don't have any bad intentions you should not have hide your face or hide from his co-worker. He still have his conscience. I asked him what was his plan? He was silent all the time. After I fired him, the following day I felt bad. I felt bad cause I really like his performance and I was planning to give him a raised. My decision is for the whole work force cause security and peace of mind is needed to cultivate a family atmosphere.

Some of my staff, told me that I was too rush in mu decision and they might able to work with him. I told them that today he did this. We taught that he could not do such a creepy thing. One day he might use drugs or had used it and do something worse that we could not even bear. I would call the police and file criminal charges and his life would be worse.

I think what I did was the right decision cause it gave my ex-personnel a perspective that right things should always be protecting and respecting others. What he did was not respectful and very scary. He might not do bad things in the future. I am not willing to risk it.